as long as the day seemed far away from me
at times & durations i declare i'm daft. dreamy durations, this always happens when i've been up all night.
after walking much farther the run of the shuttle i finally arrived at the MT Cup. not for coffee, but to hang up an ad for new roommates. i scuffled like a zombie across the street to my bank and withdrew nearly double the funds i need to cover bills. then it was back to the Cup. not for coffee, but for spiced chai. it derides the sheepish sleeplessness of the days that drag.
walking to class i passed the bus. i was tempted to hop on for a few lazy laps, legs crossed arms collapsed. decidedly it was against my good, better, and best judgments.
i swear as i lit my first cigarette the sun came out just to scald me. that bad pun is my prayer for good luck on my first test. i will pass the second like Sysiphus with a titanic tumbler--leaping through hoops of cold chills in ways that evoke oasis.
my reverse psychology is much like feigned propriety in that i'm not even embellishing details as i narrate this song for you.
i hovered over the daily news stand for hints and minutes before deciding on a firm audible, "no thank you," as if onlookers were hanging on my very hesitation.
i flirted with a middle aged woman looking for another building, but i was wrong along. my first test wasn't real. it regains actuality thursday. it's good news, a shade tolerant tree, a biome in plaid pants.
i saw an old friend from high school. she brought up a phase i went through that consisted of rit dye and only wearing red clothing. mostly she listened to me talk to myself for a good hour, sand dunes evaporating under outlandish perplexity. i said terribly profound things more terrible than profound like. . .
"when your mere glance breaks the societal mirror maybe it's time to up the dosage and dye your hair."
"Marx was such a reductionist. he needed more pussy & poetry in his life."
". . .but i don't regret anything, including the things i deny ever happened."
"marlboro lights, only virgins smoke them, that's all you need to remember."
she pointed out that no studied theorist was without conceit, and i felt much better about being self-absorbed. class is almost over. in the land of the blind the cyclops still has no depth perception; fuck phenomenology.
i insisted on being inconspicuous when i later hung more ads. being spotted shoots down our approach toward arcanum, destroying anticipation. except for my ex-girlfriend, Joni. she never sees me when she sees me anyway. she's on the "no thank you" list.
the test in jest came and the professor actually handed out answers to what we already knew. i was especially knowing, having been looking for hints all day.
and so the very day went. strange. sitting i had nothing too provoking to say, but walking around meant desperately seeking safe sitting situations productive to release & production. oasis met me, but i nearly drowned. |